“Me tengo que arreglar con el Señor”
“I need to get right with God”
We want to make ourselves presentable for God before coming to Him when truth is He does not require anything from us. He just wants us to come to Him.
We think our “past” requires us to undergo a process in order to be accepted by God. Here’s the chisme of the day: The Bible is filled with screw ups that hurt their relationships with others and with God. Then they create elaborate plans in order to fix things, but spoiler alert their plans are unnecessary.
Question: Have you ever been cheated out of something you knew was supposed to be yours? Have you ever been scammed? Essentially, have you ever been screwed over by someone – heck it may have been a loved one that did this. Well, let me tell you about Jacob who is a scammer and cheater in today’ chisme.
From Genesis chapter 25 – 33 we read all about these twin brothers named Jacob and Essau. In the simplest of terms, Jacob played his brother out of his money and his blessings. From birth it seems that Jacob was out for what Essau had. Essau was born first, but Jacob was right behind him holding onto his older brother’s heel. They didn’t get along since they were in the womb, literally read Genesis 25: 22. Jacob grabbing onto his brother’s heel is like him saying, “I’m coming after what you have.” In biblical times being the first born was a big deal and Jacob wanted that label. He scammed his brother from his firstborn birthright when Essau came in from hunting and he was so hangry that he gave up his privileges for some soup. I mean I have been hangry before, but dang he couldn’t wait a little while to heat up a tortilla?
Essau was a little foolish to give up his privileges like that, but Jacob really put that deal on the table to scam his older brother. Jacob wasn’t satisfied with just getting his older brother’s rights, he also went after Essau’s blessing by pretending to be him while their blind dad was planning to bless them before his death.
Essau was of course pissed and had plans to kill his little brother. So Jacob said gotta blast and went off to a relatives home for about 20 years.
Now that we’ve set the stage let’s get to the turning point shall we – the family reunion!
Jacob was making his way back home walking fast and is freaking out thinking, “my brother hates my guts and is going to kill my family if I come back.” I mean I would be scared to come back too if I scammed someone like that. In the middle of him freaking out, he thinksI shall send gifts before I get there. So he sent groups of animals like goats, camels, cows, and donkeys in groups with servants on ahead of him.
Genesis 22: 20 – 21 For he thought, “I may appease him with the present that goes ahead of me, and afterward I shall see his face. Perhaps he will accept me.” So the presents passed on ahead of him, and he himself stayed that night in the camp.
Jacob sent his gifts in waves ahead of him to find favor in his brothers eyes. Jacob probably didn’t feel worthy to just go and see his brother. He probably thought I seriously messed up and I can’t just show up empty handed.
I think our mentality towards God is like Jacob’s towards his brother.
We probably think: “I may appease God by cleaning up my act and presenting better versions of myself, and afterward I shall see his face. Perhaps He will accept me.”
We do not feel worthy enough to just show up so instead we say I need to get right with Him by stopping this or that or doing more of this. We may not put physical animals between us and God, but we create barriers between us and Him in other ways. You do not need to put yourself into a box and wrap yourself in bow before going to God. He doesn’t care for the external things, He cares about you as a person with all your broken insides.
Genesis 33:4; 8-9 “But Esau ran to meet him and embraced him and fell on his neck and kissed him, and they wept… “Esau said, “What do you mean by all this company that I met?” Jacob answered, “To find favor in the sight of my lord.” But Esau said, “I have enough, my brother; keep what you have for yourself.”
Maybe just maybe God is saying son/daughter what do you mean about this getting right with me. What do you mean by the distance you have created between you and I? Why have I had to wait this long to see you for you have put all of these barriers between you and I?
Jacob screwed up, but was received with loving arms even though he didn’t deserve it. Essau ran to his brother and wept over the time lost with him. You may have messed up and think you can’t just show up in front of God. You may feel like you are not where you are supposed to be. God doesn’t care about all the reasons why you think you are not good enough.
He doesn’t care about all of the actions you want to carry out before actually coming face to face with Him. God is ready to run to you.
Stop making excuses, you are the one putting these barriers in between you and God. You are the one making up a story in your head that God won’t accept you as you are. Just take a step forward in getting closer to him and He’ll run to you, promise.